WOW...

I had no idea what having cancer does to everyone.....this is what I have observed so far.....

As a family, we are kinder to one another.
We say "I love you" more.
We are more patient with each other.
We are more respectful of each other.
We help each other out.
I make sure the boys are hugged daily!!

So far, Tony having cancer has touched each of us in one way or another. 

I love my husband on a deeper level.  I love my kids on a deeper level.  It's not just the quick "Love you, bye" anymore.  It's eye contact, speaking to each person directly as though they are the only person in the world.  I want to make sure they know they matter.  That they are important.  That I love them.  That they are irreplaceable. 

The boys are kinder to each other. 
The boys are more respectful to me.
The boys are more helpful around the house.

Tristan is enjoying his time with his dad more than ever before.  Tristan is appreciating all his dad does for him more.  Tristan loves his dad and has a great relationship with him.

Kade has had the most questions.  Kade is watching from a distance.  Kade is waiting and taking it all in.  He needs all the information then we will see what happens.  Kade loves and worries about his dad. 

Connor has asked if his dad will die.  I had to tell him that we had great doctors and probably not but we don't have all the answers yet.  Connor asked if dad hurt.....I could honestly answer that one and say no.  I could NOT say that there was a lot of pain but none of it was physical.  Connor has a special relationship with his daddy.  His daddy is still his hero.  Connor asked all the questions the other boys wanted to but didn't.  All the questions I want answers to but don't have. 

I LOVE MY FAMILY.