I am praying that today will be a good day. I will be spending the morning with Tristan. We both have doctors appointments so we are going to hang out today and hopefully he will open up to me a little more. I am also going to be speaking to his doctor about what is going on and see if he has any suggestions. It's not like Tristan is walking around in some depression but it seems little things will set him off or bring out the tears. I'm sure all of this so far is perfectly normal but I need to know what is not normal since I sometimes just get in a fog myself. I think it is some sort of protection mode...going through the motions to keep everyone on schedule so you don't cry when in all actuality, that is the only thing you want to do. I believe I threw my sons cell phone and my medicine in the trash can the other night. Just going through the motions. I have now learned that I can't just go through the motions, I have to pay attention to what I am cleaning and not just throw anything away!!

One day at a time...sometimes, one minute at a time but we will make it...we are a family!