Tristan....

I have to say this is really hurting my heart. I'm not talking about the fact that Tony is sick, I'm talking about Tristan. Of all my children, he is taking this the hardest. I want to hold him and love on him but he is just pulling away. He isn't sleeping well, he is forgetting his assignments, he forgets his stuff at school. His mind is someplace else. Last night his batting helmet was busted and you would have thought his world had ended.....I went upstairs to talk to him and told him it wasn't a big deal, we would get another one. He doesn't want another one, that one has all the scuffs and all the MEMORIES. I told him that his memories are in his heart and if he had to put them in one object, he has his dirty, stinky baseball cap that he has been using for the past four years and still won't let me wash!! That seemed to make sense to him and he is fine with that. I want to fix this for him. I want to make it all better. I want to take his hurt away but I can't. All I can do is pray for him. Hug on him and let him know I love him and if he needs anything, I am here for him so is his dad. Tristan needs to find an outlet. Will contact his youth leader and see if he can help. I don't know what to do and as a mom that is the hardest feeling in the world. I love my boys and I hate it when they hurt. PRAY PRAY PRAY