My sister and her family brought us ice cream tonight. It was so yummy!! I figure if I'm not sleeping very well, I might as well have some ice cream!! My husband was already in bed...I had just put the kids in bed. When my sister arrived she told me to get the kids up it was time for ice cream!! I sent her kids up to tell them. They were very excited!! I keep telling myself it's the little things. I hope I can remember that because I am trying not to get so wrapped up in what is to come but it is very difficult to keep that from happening. Without knowing, you can only imagine. Some days, I think everything will be fine. Other days...not so much. Today was a not so much day. I am very worried about my husband and my family. I can only do so much and some days it feels like it isn't enough or I am not in "tune" with my kids the way I should be. I pray that I won't let this overwhelm me. I do have a good support group of family and friends. I firmly believe that God puts people in your life for a reason. I have been really blessed by my "kids" parents. They have really been supportive and understanding and boy do they listen well!! I have a wonderful sister and her family and then there is my dad. He is a God send. He has been a rock through this for me. He has listened and been supportive and also put me in check when I feel like I am unraveling. Sometimes I call him just to know he is still there and I know I can talk to him. I talk to my sister every day about anything. She is awesome....

I just wish I wasn't so tired....Guess I will try and go to bed...Good night everyone!