Sleeping on it

I always seem to type up this blog in the morning after I have slept on the days events.

Tony and I went to see our family physician and discuss the treatment options that were presented to us by the specialist and get a little clarity. Tony has opted for the general surgery. This is an invasive surgery that requires the doctor to go through the stomach and stomach muscle but it is a very thorough surgery. The doctor will be able to look around and see if there is any more cancer and touch the nodes and see if they have cancer and remove them. I have no idea when this is going to be scheduled but it will be with in three weeks. I believe in my heart and even my gut that Tony has made the right decision.

I have to say this is a truly difficult time for us but I have about as much peace as I can possible have. I'm not full of anxiety every day, the tears are less if not gone for the most part and we are barely making it financially but as of now, we are shuffling enough to make it. It helps that we have been very blessed by Kade's swim team, they have taken some of that financial burden away. The electric company has agreed to give us a small extension and I have to call the gas company today. We have some great friends that have brought us groceries, and meals and lots of prayers.

Now, if I can just get my kids to relax and stop worrying. I know they are like little sponges and absorb not just the words but the emotions and moods that are around them. My emotions are ok, just really tired, Tony is now thinking that "this really sucks" as he so eloquently put it!! I can't even begin to imagine how he is feeling or what is going on but I can tell you that he is a fighter even when he is scared or tired or mad. I am really praying that God just lays his hands on him and grants him peace in his mind and in his heart.